I was very unhappy with the last post I made in this "series". I felt that I didn't say what I wanted to say, I didn't conclude it well, and I rambled on in a very boring fashion. I'm going to try to wrap this up now.
One reason I write so much about this topic is that I wanted to do OB/Gyn for so long. Even now that I am sure I don't want to become an OB, I still find myself emotionally vested in this subject. Before med school and even into first and second year, I pictured myself delivering babies and providing health care to women. One fantasy I had entertained involved opening a hospital-affiliated birth center--some kind of hybrid place next door to (or in) a hospital where women could choose from a variety of labor and delivery options while knowing that medical care was only seconds away.
In reality, I think such a place would be ideal for many women. The hospital I am currently at has an excellent L&D staff of nurturing female nurses who coach women through delivery every day, but I think it's lacking in other ways I've previously described. Each room has a birthing ball inside, but I've yet to see a mother use one, because they're hooked up to an IV and a toco and an EFM and/or they have an epidural. The whole attitude around here is very medical, and as far as they're concerned that's the only way.
I'm fully aware that the residents here are expected to do what they are told, regardless of their opinion on the matter. However, I haven't really heard anyone here say anything about it. I think the majority of residents I've worked with have accepted all this as the right way to do things, end of story. I wish they could receive exposure to other ideas instead of just laughing them off as nonsense. I guess most of medicine has that reaction to ICAM practices, including OB.
I did see an ancient birth technique used the other day. The mother had a tiny pelvis and her baby was wedged in tightly. With each push, more scalp came through her vagina, but it was mostly growing caput instead of true crowning. Her pelvis was so narrow that the chief resident couldn't place forceps, and the caput was too severe for a good vacuum seal. Added to all that stress, the baby was having late decels--the strip looked really bad. Even with her strong pushing, the baby wasn't moving.
The nurse had a few tricks to try, however. When grabbing behind the knees didn't work, and grabbing the ankles didn't work, she pulled out a sheet, tied a knot in it, handed the knot to the mother, and they played tug of war. That worked for a while until mom's arms got tired and the rope kept slipping. Lastly, a pair of handles was produced out of the side of the bed, the mother grabbed hold, and finally the baby was born. I think she pushed for an hour and a half. The baby required some medical attention because of his prolonged birth.
My favorite births have been like the one above--where the best of medical techniques and midwifery skills combine. I realize that life isn't perfect, but if I had my say I'd choose a combination of my favorite techniques. I'll probably want an epidural--I'm a WUSS--but I'd like to try other methods of pain control first. I've always wanted to try water birth, or at least laboring in a hot tub, to see if the pain relief is as great as I hear. I want to labor in a pretty room without a television (or at least with it off--it's so irritating to have BET on in the background in between pushes) with my husband and perhaps my mother with me--not a huge crowd of people.
I don't want to wear some hideous hospital gown--I'd rather find some cheap gown or go naked. I don't want to labor flat on my back, and if I can find a hospital that allows longer time before cutting the umbilical cord, that would be nice. I don't want a doctor who pushes pitocin as soon as I hit L&D, or breaks my water at 2 centimeters dilated.
I do want a doctor who comes running the moment my baby has a late decel, as the residents here do. They are extremely attentive when there's a problem. I do want nurses who are as nice and as skilled as the ones here. I have a feeling that when I have babies, I'll need all the help I can get. I do want my baby put on me, skin to skin, so we can bond and breastfeed and what not as soon as it's born.
So there's my "All God's Chillun" solution to my dilemma of the past few weeks: more combination of techniques, more allowance for mother's wishes, more acceptance of "alternate" techniques, more knowledge of what the proper active management of labor actually entails (we're a little overly active here). I'm comforted to hear from accepting midwives like Frectis and accepting OB's like MWWAK--obviously, there's some hope of reconciliation of both worlds.
Can't we all just get along?
Standard disclaimer: I'm not pregnant. You just can't be on L&D and not think about having babies. It's impossible. All the nurses are pregnant; three residents are pregnant; 15-year-old girls are having babies around here every day. But it's just a thought, nothing more. *reassures panicked husband*
Saturday, April 28, 2007
I was very unhappy with the last post I made in this "series". I felt that I didn't say what I wanted to say, I didn't conclude it well, and I rambled on in a very boring fashion. I'm going to try to wrap this up now.
Thursday, April 26, 2007
"Ewww, you have to look at penises all day!"
Oh my god, you're right! What was I thinking?
"Well, I talked to my husband/father/male friend, and he'd NEVER see a female urologist."
Oh my god, you're right! Just like there are ZERO females who would ever see a male OB/gyn!
"That sounds boring."
Aw, shucks! I should do YOUR job, which I'm sure just rocks!
"Urology? Really? Ugh, why???"
Um, because I decided I like it? Just like you decided you like accounting/nursing/law/working at McDonalds?
"Men are so dirty!"
And women are spotlessly clean and NEVER, EVER stink.
"You think you can get in? I mean, urology is SUPER COMPETITIVE."
No way! Here I was thinking this was a cakewalk! Maybe I should just give up and do FP, since it's not competitive, and obviously you think I'm too dumb to compete!
"Neurology, huh? Sounds interesting."
Uh, no. Urology with a YOUUUUUUUUU. Peepee doc.
"Heh heh, you must really like looking at naked guys all day."
Obviously, I must be a pervert for wanting to take care of a part of the anatomy which we normally keep covered.
"Urology? Isn't that a guy field?"
You're right, I really should be at home baking pies and raising six children.
"I knew a urologist and they [insert long-winded story of poor outcome for the aforementioned urologist]."
Thanks, that was so considerate!
--ad lib numerous comments of people wishing to comment on my personal life and choice of specialty without actually saying anything helpful--
If I weren't having sort of an identity crisis right now, it wouldn't bother me so much, but I just feel like it's been a while since anyone said to me "Urology? You know, I thought that was a really neat field." Since when does every nurse, intern, resident, and attending who asks me "So, what specialty are you going into?" feel that they have to comment negatively about my response?
New rule of the day: "If you can't say something nice, JUST SHUT THE HELL UP."
Wednesday, April 25, 2007
I occasionally get the urge to try to get people to read my blog. What can I say, I'm an attention whore. To that end, I submitted a post to Grand Rounds again, and the kind author at Med Valley High chose to link to my post, in addition to quite a few others who submitted as well. So, as promised, I'm linking to her here. Go check it out!
If you're coming from Grand Rounds, the post referred to is here.
Monday, April 23, 2007
So I'm up watching TV, trying to switch my sleep cycle for my night shifts this week, and a commercial just came on for AICDs. Did you know that you should ask your doctor about an implantable defibrillator, because it can give you more time with your grandkids?
Am I the only one who finds it sketchy that a drug company needs to advertise the implantable defibrillator? Are sales really that poor? Also, the message I got, from just catching a glimpse of the commercial, is that an AICD can save/prolong your life. That's it. Nowhere in the commercial did I hear mention of an AICD being used for CHF (although I wasn't paying very close attention). Are there people out there who think that an AICD is a simple preventable health measure for anyone, like taking a vitamin?
I think I'm up past my bedtime.
Friday, April 20, 2007
So for the past week, I've spent my mornings seeing patients at the women's clinic at the county jail. I caught the train to downtown, carrying my white coat in a bag so no one would mistake me for a rich doctor and try to mug me. After getting off the train, I'd walk about 5 blocks to the jail. Coming in the front doors, I'd change out my hoodie for my white coat and proceed to the thick glass window to check in. I had to leave my bag and my cell phone in a locker in the lobby. Then, I'd go through the metal detector while a deputy rifled through my white coat. Then, the airlock: a guard would buzz me in one door, examine my ID's through bulletproof glass, then buzz me through the far door. The two doors could not be open at the same time. After that, I would walk past holding rooms packed with people waiting to go to one of the clinics and eventually arrive at the women's clinic.
The smell walking in every day was one of thick air, a place where so many people are breathing and simply existing in a place without windows that the air is heavy and stale. The first few breaths are the worst--then you get used to it, until you walk outside and realize the air smells sweet.
The clinic was run by two nurses, both of whom had been there a long time. They were tough ladies, indeed. Clinic was a tightly-run ship, pumping patients in and out. Two inmates would enter, weigh in, and be put in "rooms," separated from the rest of the clinic by a curtain. They wore bright scrub-type clothing and sandals, no handcuffs.
Seeing patients for the day: an OB intern, myself, and an OB attending to sign the charts. There were two types of patients: OB and gyn. OB patients in county custody receive free clinic visits and prenatal care; delivery takes place at [county hospital]. I'd go see them, make sure they don't have preterm labor or pre-eclampsia symptoms, measure their fundal height, listen to the baby's heart tones, and then leave to present the patient. We'd take the standard prenatal labs, and if they had any vaginal complaints we'd do a pelvic exam. For gyn patients, the usual complaint was vaginal discharge; we did have one complain of amenorrhea (she looked like PCOS). They all got pap smears and pelvic exams. OB visits are free; gyn visits are $15.
After the exam, we'd perform our own wet mount at a really crappy old microscope (hence the whiff tests I essentially refused to do). The organism at the top of the page was spotted yesterday in a gyn patient with the standard complaint; we gave her a dose of Vitamin F (my attending said it should be put into the water supply). Otherwise, everyone had BV, BV, BV, with the occasional Chlamydia trachomatis and Neisseria gonorrhoeae thrown in. Chlamydia was especially prevalent. The nurses kept a bottle of azithromycin and a few vials of ceftriaxone in the cabinet for just such occasions. I'd venture a guess that up to 25% of the patients and charts I saw documented a current STD; upwards of 50% had a history of an STD.
For the most part, I felt the patients I saw were honest with me. Most would admit a history of drug use ("yeah, I took crack and Xanax"), STD's, etc. I didn't ask why there were there; I only asked how long they were staying. None were mean or rude to me; most were simply happy to be heard.
All in all, a very strange week. I don't have anything particularly deep to say about the experience; I was just thrilled to get to leave every day, and I'm kinda happy not to go back.
Wednesday, April 18, 2007
My school assigns second year medical students to mentor incoming first year students. When I was a first year, I was assigned C, a very popular, friendly second year. She was also my neighbor, and we frequently met outside while walking our dogs. She gave me a ton of textbooks and advice for getting through the first year of med school; she also left me small gifts in my school mailbox around test time. (My favorite: two cans of Tecate and a fresh lime at the end of Block I exams).
After that year, we both moved, and she became a busy third year, and we kind of lost touch.
Recently, my friend B was talking to her "second year", now a fourth year student almost ready to graduate. Some other fourth years were talking about whether they've stayed in touch with their old first years or not.
One girl was saying, "I used to see my first year all the time, but then I realized she was a super-smart gunner type and I couldn't really help her much." It was C.
So there you go. I'm coming out of the closet. Yes, I'm a gunner. I like to think of myself as a nice gunner, but still. If I had to rate myself on the Med School Hell Gunner Scale, I'd put myself as a cross between the Guns-Blazin' Gunner and the Closet Gunner. If I could add a category of "Apologetic Gunner", I would do so. Yes, I study. Yes, I have a good memory, and I can often answer questions correctly (although not so often as I'd like--I'm quite an expert at saying "I don't know.") However, I don't go out of my way to "snipe" people by answering questions directly addressed at others; I only bring in articles if I've been asked to do so, or if everyone on the team is bringing in articles. Especially on the wards, we all have to survive and get the work done--why make it any harder than it has to be? I don't go out of my way to make others look bad.
However, I do find myself occasionally doing just that--making other people look bad.
On my surgery rotation, I earned a reputation for what I'd like to call, "While sleep deprived, I said dumb shit in front of residents/attendings louder than I intended that came out wrong." For example, one of the residents and I had an ongoing joke. Anytime I messed anything up, he'd say "You fail!" We'd laugh and go on. One day, one of my teammates did something or other minorly incorrect and I said "You fail!" Apparently, the other students weren't in on the joke, and they were appalled that I would say such a thing--they thought I'd made myself look really bad. I'm also an annoyingly loud person, so often I say stuff much louder than I think I'm saying it. I try not to say stuff that I shouldn't be overheard saying, but I fail at this all the time.
On pediatrics (and in PBL last year as well), my attending told me during my eval: "You do a great job, but you should really let the other students answer questions from time to time." Apparently, I'm a little, uh, over-enthusiastic sometimes.
Fortunately, I usually make up for all this stuff by putting my foot in my mouth in some spectacular manner or other. While presenting patients, I get into a "script", spouting off the standard phrases until for some reason, I "derail" midsentence. There's a long pause, and then I usually make a comment about derailing or losing my train of thought because that's exactly what happened--I go brain-dead in midsentence. It's like having Alzheimer's at the age of 25 sometimes.
Once, while describing a patient with Wernicke's aphasia, I said "I heard her speaking--it was just utter, utter nonsense." On rounds. To an attending. I can't remember every time a team of residents and students and attendings laughed at something I inadvertently said during a presentation, but it's happened more than once.
So, in conclusion, while I might be a gunner, I'm not always a smart gunner. In fact, quite frequently, I'm a stupid gunner, though not so stupid as to volunteer for heinous tasks. Like today, when told to do "whiff tests" on all my patients with vaginal discharge. After the first one almost keeled me over, I started throwing away the samples immediately after making the slides--oops, did I forget to do that one? My bad! Good thing there are always clue cells to look at!
Guess I'm not as dumb as I look!
Tuesday, April 17, 2007
"You ladies all want scheduled inductions these days. In private practice, around 90% of childbirths are induced, and that's a good thing. We induce in the daytime, when the hospital's full, so it's safer. We have cervical ripening agents for an unfavorable cervix. If you want to induce your baby on a particular day, why not? I'll check the cervix--if it's too unfavorable, I won't do it, but if a patient comes in at term and her cervix has changed, I'll go ahead and schedule her induction. And if we schedule labor, especially during the day, I can attend more labors. I probably attend over 90% of my patients' deliveries.
"Did you know childbirth is the only type of pain that a doctor is allowed to withhold pain medication for? It's true. For any other pain as intense, a doctor would be committing malpractice to withhold pain medication. That whole 'natural childbirth' thing? Nonsense. All that Lamaaze crap--it doesn't work. I'm so glad that fad is over. Childbirth hurts! Epidurals are good!
"I don't see why labor is different from any other medical condition. We control our blood pressure, we control our cholesterol--now we control childbirth the same way."
I thought it was interesting to hear these viewpoints, as the other student and I had spent a good part of our time on L&D discussing alternatives to medical birth. Both of us had felt somewhat alienated by the medicalization of the whole process, but neither of us had really heard a justification for the medical attitudes. I was especially surprised to hear him admit that OB's schedule deliveries for their own convenience--he not only admitted it, he reveled in it. If you're going to be a medical OB, it's not a bad idea to be like this guy. Be passionate.
Nevertheless, I couldn't help but be turned off by his little speech (which went on for probably half an hour--I've abbreviated a good deal). He simply assumed that all patients would agree with this mindset, and he basically brushed aside any concerns--I know what's best, honey.
I'm turned off by the prevailing mindset in medical obstetrics, but I'll admit to being frightened of going totally the other direction. I've seen several stat c-sections where things were going fine and then BAM! prolonged decelerations of fetal heart rate, or cord prolapse, or shoulder dystocia, etc.
The reason we don't all give birth at home in comfort is that we've all heard a horror story from our mom, our aunt, our grandmother about the "bad old days". Despite the fact that our maternal and baby mortality rate is high for an industrialized nation, it's still better than it used to be. In the 1930's, up to 1 in 150 mothers died as a result of pregnancy. Now, fewer than 1 on 10,000 mothers die. We've come a long way.
I think one problem is that we don't really distinguish between low and high risk pregnancies. Sure, we talk about the difference between the two, but at my hospital, we strap them all to a continuous fetal heart monitor. Therefore, the difference is blurred for me; in looking back, it's hard to tell which pregnancies were high and which were low risk because they were all treated the same until fetal distress ensued. Thus, it's hard for me to remember which ladies were higher risk prior to delivery and then had trouble with delivery, as opposed to ladies who had no indication of trouble and then ended up with an unexpected complication.
Atul Gawande's new book, Better, has a whole chapter devoted to the history of obstetrics, the development of the forceps, and the rise of the current medical aura. He attributes a lot of it to the need to "standardize" OB. Only a highly skilled doctor may successfully use the forceps; almost any obstetrician can use a vacuum, or perform a cesarean section. In the right hands, forceps are as safe or safer than c-section; in the wrong hands, they are quite dangerous. In the interest of saving all babies, no matter the skill of the doctor, birth has become more standardized. It's an interesting viewpoint.
At the end of all this rambling, I've reached some temporary conclusions about the way I want to labor. Home birth scares me, because of my innate fear of something going wrong emergently, STAT, that requires medical intervention. Fully medical birth is distasteful to me. I think if I were to have a baby tomorrow, I'd probably try to find a doula to assist me in labor at a hospital. I'd like to try to do without the epidural, or at least put it off for a while. If my labor is progressing well, I'd like to avoid pitocin and artificial rupture of membranes. I'd like to get up, walk around, use a birthing ball, use the restroom without help, etc.
However, out of cowardice, I'm hedging my bets. Instead of fully trusting my birth to a midwife, at home, I'm trying to have my cake and eat it too. I'm also leaving myself plenty of room to eventually change my mind in either way as I get more information--hence "Part III" instead of "Conclusion". And, like the lady in Better, who ended up having a c-section after extremely protracted labor and arrested descent, I'll get over it if I can't have everything I want, so long as I'm home with my baby eventually.
No, I'm not pregnant. No, I'm not planning on becoming pregnant any time soon.
Sunday, April 15, 2007
Midwife With a Knife has made a great post about the studies behind abstinence-only sex education. I highly recommend that you check it out!
For inspiration, I found a picture of the world's oldest condom, from 1640. The user's manual is written in Latin.
Friday, April 13, 2007
As promised, I want to talk about the (very little) I know about midwives and/or alternatives to the accepted medical standard of birth. My first thought is that there is very little consensus to the standard of birth and/or labor anyway. At my hospital, we do epidurals, pitocin, cut the cord immediately, term inductions, etc. At [county hospital], they get pitocin, but most of the ladies come in during the active phase of labor, if not delivering the baby on the stretcher, so there is much less "active management". At [froofroo private hospital], the third place students rotate, I think it's probably more common to induce electively; they probably do some elective c-sections, etc.
So if there's so much variation in the medical community, what is so different in a midwife birth? The following list comes from limited internet research, discussions with "the other med student on OB", and reading about midwives I've done over time. It is by no means all-inclusive, and I could be wrong on any point--I'm no expert.
- Likely to be at home or in a birth center. Some midwives do have hospital privileges, and many (most?) will accompany a patient to the hospital if a home birth fails. Doulas may assist a laboring mother in a hospital setting or at home, with or without a midwife. If you give birth at home, you're surrounded by your own furniture and family. Birth centers tend to be better-decorated than hospital rooms (at least the ones in my hospital).
- Depending on the midwife, there may be more focus on nutrition and/or herbs in prenatal care. Some, but not all, practice homeopathy.
- Many midwives encourage water birth. Since the baby is still attached to the umbilical cord, they won't drown. From what I understand, the warm water relieves pain quite well.
- There is a greater focus on immediate breast-feeding, mom/baby bonding, and father bonding with midwife-tended birth. There's no whisking the baby off to the nursery; instead, any labs to draw on mom and baby take second place to breast-feeding and bonding.
- Many midwives believe in delaying the cutting of the umbilical cord. As Midwife With a Knife said in a comment, some neonatologists believe in the same thing, as the baby is still receiving precious oxygen via the umbilical cord until the placenta detaches from the uterus.
- Most of the midwives I've checked out locally offer a full one hour initial visit, with as many prenatal visits as necessary. They're definitely more thorough than the 5-10 minute prenatal visit that is the medical standard.
- Midwives aren't very likely to rupture a woman's membranes to "hurry the process along". Many of the stories I'm reading on midwife websites talk about the water breaking immediately before birth.
- In our hospital, we constantly monitor all laboring mothers with a tocometer for contractions and an external fetal heart rate monitor for the baby. The monitors are held on the belly with tight elastic bands that aren't extremely comfortable; the only time they're off of most moms is if they're in the bathroom. Many midwives only monitor babies intermittently, especially if the pregnancy is low-risk, helping mother's comfort.
- After a mom has an epidural, she can't really get up to go to the bathroom easily, so she either has to use a bedpan or have a straight catheter drain her bladder. If you have no epidural, you can walk around to go to the bathroom in privacy.
- No ugly hospital gowns in a home or birth-center birth.
- More focus on mom pushing on her side, propped on her back, in a bathtub, or even squatting, which should help with pain control and *help* prevent back labor. Pushing with gravity should help pushing be more efficient and take baby's weight off the back, rectum, and perineum.
- Midwives and/or doulas stay with mom for longer during the labor process. In our hospital, the ob's check on laboring moms every 2 hours unless there's a reason to check on them. After the delivery, we leave shortly after everything is over. The midwife or doula is much more involved with labor than we are, and they stick around longer to help get everything squared away. Fortunately, we do have excellent L&D nurses at our hospital who kind of take on this role, but even they have multiple laboring patients at a time and other duties to attend, and cannot stay at a woman's bedside for long periods of time.
So, why doesn't everyone have a midwife birth? Why don't we all give birth in our hot tubs, surrounded by family, unhindered by medication, flowers in our hair, connecting with our instinctive inner mother? I will discuss my own pro and con list in Part III, coming soon. Keep the comments coming--I love hearing the different opinions! Also, if anyone could explain the difference between lay midwife and nurse midwife to me, I'd be grateful!
Thursday, April 12, 2007
The title of this post comes from the movie the picture comes from. I'm not actually in the depths of despair, but I am somewhat frustrated with life in general and medicine in particular. Sometimes, I feel like I've gone into the wrong profession. There have been shining high moments while I've been a medical student, where I feel like everything is worthwhile, but right now, I feel like those moments are few and far between. There seem to be many more moments where I'm frustrated with a resident's callousness toward a patient, or an attending's casualness with time, or a patient's refusal to take responsibility for their own care, or the system's inability to provide even basic care to those who really need it, or any of the other million things that frustrate me.
My decision to go into urology has seemed somewhat ridiculous here lately. Several guys I've discussed this with have told me they wouldn't see a female urologist, as if women never see a urologist or as if all men have such a preference. Should we tell men not to become ob/gyns, since some women have a strong preference for female ob/gyns?
I met with a urologist today to discuss research options. After scheduling an appointment via email, I walked over to the clinic, hopeful and excited. As I went to meet the doctor, he said, "Ah, you think you like urology, right? I want you to meet with my resident here, she's the best resident I have, and she is quitting urology here soon. Oh, yes, research. I have some basic research starting soon, leave your contact information with my secretary and I'll get in touch with you when it begins." For this, I walked about a quarter of a mile, and had to get special permission from the attending and chief resident to leave L&D. Was he deliberately trying to discourage me? Why else would he want me to meet a resident who is quitting? Or did less thought go into this than that?
I had been doing so well for a while. I can't tell if I'm getting more upset because I should be, or because I'm getting depressed. I do feel somewhat hopeless, like what the fuck am I doing? Am I going into the right field? Am I taking the "easy" route by not doing family practice or internal medicine or OB? How interested am I in this field? Am I picking it by default, because nothing else was interesting at all? The questions just keep coming, and I can't quite answer them right now. I'm sure this will pass--after all, I've been very excited about urology. I just dislike feeling so helpless.
At least I got to deliver my second baby today. I also sutured a perineal lac, which scared me to death--I hadn't sutured anybody since surgery in August, for pete's sake. And I still haven't dropped a baby, thank god.
Wednesday, April 11, 2007
Currently, on my L&D rotation, I’m watching some of the best of medical obstetrics. Patients are actively managed throughout labor;
We deliver babies in head to toe sterile blue gowns, sometimes with face shields and booties. We drape the mother in sterile blankets, break the bed down, put her feet in stirrups, and place a plastic bag under her bottom to catch the mess. After the baby is born, we stand to deliver the placenta into a plastic bucket and repair any lacerations while the pediatricians examine and wipe down the baby. Often, mom is holding conversations with family members while we are trying to repair her perineum. Fortunately, most (all?) of these women have had epidurals, so they can’t really feel us stitching. Eventually, baby comes back to mom, we finish stitching, and someone wipes all the mess off, dries her off, puts the bed back together, and covers her back up.
It’s an entirely medical, sterile process, until mom starts to push. When she grabs her thighs, puts her chin down, and really pushes, I’m reminded of what an ancient process this really is. Then, I start to ask questions. How much of our “active management of labor” is really meddling with a natural process? How much are we really helping? Do we help more than we hinder, or vice versa?
Most of my mothers labor flat on their backs. Gravity isn’t allowed to assist them; at best, their bed is tilted slightly above horizontal. The bed is often raised 3+ feet off the ground, to make the angle better for the
I have not yet attended a labor without an epidural. I have nothing against epidurals; I’m seriously considering one when I have babies. I’ve seen many mothers say “Wow, I could really push—I wasn’t tired at all!” I also have not seen any latching problems that I could say were directly related to the epidural; I would venture to say that we do not encourage immediate breast-feeding enough, which probably has a large impact. The babies I’ve seen have all been quite alert. (I know I haven’t seen all that much; I’m only commenting on my experience.)
My only problem with our use of epidurals is that everyone has one. We have talked several women into epidurals who really didn’t want one. Sometimes, it’s medically indicated, but often it is not. I’ve seen several moms who really didn’t seem to need one, at least not early. Also, epidurals can cause complications (like everything else), and I'm not sure how well we really counsel patients as to the risks and benefits. But, I've never really seen a mom say "Man, I really wish I hadn't gotten that epidural," so maybe it's all worth it.
As I briefly mentioned above, we do not seem to encourage immediate breast-feeding. Even in moms who say they wish to breastfeed, no one has returned a baby (after weights and Apgars) and suggested that she attempt to feed. It’s not a huge deal, I guess, but it seems logical that many breast-feeding problems may be avoided, or at least caught sooner, the sooner one starts to breast-feed.
Almost every mother I’ve watched has had her labor “augmented” with pitocin. It’s an automatic reflex for the residents and attendings. “Start her on pit—I want to get her delivered before 5 so I can go to my meeting” is not an uncommon sentiment. Ladies on pit contract harder, so they have more pain, so they all have epidurals. Then, sometimes pit induces uterine hyperstimulation and fetal bradycardia, so they’re given terbutaline. I remember on internal medicine that someone told me you should try not to give a medicine to treat a side effect of another medicine, unless for some reason the medicine is absolutely necessary. Is all this pit necessary?
I guess I wouldn’t find it so problematic if the women were saying “I want pit—let’s hurry this up.” Instead, it’s usually the
I guess my biggest problem is the attitude of the obstetricians. Most of the residents are fairly passionate; they enjoy delivering babies. When they’re on L&D, they have no other responsibilities—no clinic, no meetings. The attendings, however, are super, super busy. They’re lucky to make it to the deliveries of their patients, and they’re usually impatient. They come in when she’s pushing and they leave after the lacerations are repaired. The majority don’t seem too excited to be there; they’re usually in a hurry to leave.
My grandmother told me once that she thought her
Is there an alternative to all this? There is: the midwife. In my next post, I’ll address what little I know about alternatives to medical birth (which, I'm sure, is not much, as I have not seen a single midwife or doula in my time in L&D).
Tuesday, April 10, 2007
Theorem One: OB/Gyns can be bitches.
There, I said it.
I do not think that all OB/Gyns are bitches. I think there is something about being around all that estrogen ALL THE TIME that encourages the bitchiness. There's estrogen from the patients, of course, and also from the doctors themselves, probably 90% of whom are female.
I will back up my theorem with proofs:
- In the resident's lounge, one wall is covered with pictures of the residents hanging out, cooking together, getting drunk together (a frequent occurrence); pictures of their babies, baby pictures of themselves, etc. In front of this backdrop, there is gossip going on. Constant, nonstop gossip. Every resident knows every other resident's business, and they talk about it incessantly.
- The male intern I have worked with the past week practically owns his own pair of ovaries. He drinks Diet Coke, he gossips about the attendings, he gets his feelings hurt, and he picks up on subtle digs that one attending makes about female residents. Last week, he said "Guys, guess what? I managed to hold a phone conversation AND answer a page AT THE SAME TIME! I can multitask now!" He's actually married with children, so it's not that he's gay (I assume).
- I am becoming bitchier by the day. It could be the lack of scheduled food and/or snacks (big girl's gotta eat, ya know), or it could be the SEA OF ESTROGEN.
A fable, if you will, to reinforce the point:
This morning, the other student and I spent a fair amount of time talking with a laboring patient. She was very sweet and friendly, telling us over and over that "I don't mind students, I'm just so glad you two are female!" It was her third baby, and she was well-used to the entire process.
Right after grabbing pizza for the residents (and sneaking a piece for myself), I returned to the lounge to the news that the patient was completely dilated. Since the other student had seen a delivery today and I had not, I ran behind the resident to the room, tucking my hair into my fashionable pony scrub cap on the way. We got there and indeed, the patient was ready to push. Her attending was on the way, so we waited outside until she arrived.
She came clumping down the hall in the loudest pair of clogs I've ever heard, talking a mile a minute with the chief. At the door, she turned to me and said "Oh no, honey, no students on this one, this patient's kinda funny about that, ya know? No students, sorry, she's just kinda funny," and walked on in.
There was nothing for me to do but say "Okay" and walk back to the lounge. The residents inside asked me why I was back so soon--did I get kicked out? I confirmed. They asked why, and I said briefly that she said the patient didn't want students. The other student gaped at me--she'd heard the same message from the patient I had. The residents began to abuse the attending a bit, saying it wasn't fair, she was kinda weird, etc. I kept quiet--I'm well aware that the lounge's walls have ears. When the attending came in after the delivery, everyone said "Oh, hi, Dr.! How did it go?" as if they hadn't just been speaking unkindly.
It's not that I'm not a gossip, it's not that I can't be mean or talk about people behind their backs. It's just that it's every day, all the time, and I'm fairly sure that no one is safe from the razor tongues (with the possible exception of the students--said male intern can't remember my name, and I wear a name tag every day). And I dislike talking badly about my friends behind their backs about subjects I wouldn't bring up to their faces--I'm sure I've done it, more than once, but it makes me feel slimy. It's just so freaking prevalent here! It's a corrosive environment!
I'm actually kind of glad that urology is more male-dominated. I get along better as one of the guys than one of the girls.
Monday, April 09, 2007
So far, I'm on "OB Days", or 0500-1700 shifts on L&D. Friday morning, the chief resident entered the lounge, looked at all of us (resident, intern, 2 students) sitting around groggy-eyed and said "Man, you guys look like the first week of days."
Friday night, I came home, watched "What Not to Wear", and fell asleep by 9 pm. And didn't wake up until noon Saturday.The only reason I didn't wear pajamas out to study on Saturday was because I'd watched WNTW on Friday, to be honest.
Tuesday, Thursday, and Friday were non-stop exhausting days. Babies were being born all over the place, both in L&D and in the OR. Women were coming into triage, either in labor or with BV or in preterm labor or vomiting or... or... or...
Wednesday, we sat around and did nothing for hours. I went to get my urology advisor to sign my paperwork, and my one patient in labor delivered in the 15 minutes I was gone. I did practice delivering a doll through a plastic pelvis, and I stitched an "episiotomy" on a piece of foam. Sunday, on call from 0800 to 2200, I watched "Old School," "Dodgeball," and "Van Wilder."
TODAY I DELIVERED MY FIRST BABY! AND I DIDN'T DROP IT! AND I WASN'T THE JERK ON THE CORD!
I've been so freaking busy on this rotation that every time I think of great stuff to write about, I don't get to write it until it's too late. I want to write about the residents, and the gossip, and some of the funny stories, but I'm not sure I can remember enough stuff to write at this point.
I'll share one anecdote before I forget it. Eighteen year old girl was in labor Sunday morning. Her husband/boyfriend/baby daddy kept joking about everything, so while she was trying to deliver, she kept laughing and saying "Oh, quit making me laugh, it puts more pressure on!" Every time she laughed, the baby's head would crown a little more. Her baby daddy started cheering her on: "Come on, honey, laugh the baby out! You can do it, just laugh a little more and laugh it out! Seriously, baby, every time you laugh it pushes more than when you push!" This, of course, made her laugh harder, which made the baby come out faster. Unfortunately, she then had a contraction, and pushed the baby out the conventional way. Her baby daddy told her he was proud anyway.
Tuesday, April 03, 2007
- I arrived at 0500 and started prerounding. It took me the full 1.5 hours to see 2 whole patients. "Are you peeing and pooping? Aww, what a cute baby! How is your pain? Oh, the baby is so cute!"
- At 0630, the residents from night shift checked out to the day shift. By 0800, I had already seen several patients, but now it was time for attending rounds. I staggered into the residents' lounge carrying a stack of heavy plastic charts and prepared for the pimping. "Why do we give Rhogam? How much bleeding is allowed for postpartum bleeding, and how much for hemorrhage? What are the indications for IUD placement? What are the causes of postpartum fever?" etc, etc, etc. I love getting pimped on my first day of a rotation.
- By 1030, I had watched a delivery (OP, epidural, 2nd degree lac), examined another pregnant lady, broken her bag of water, and done other stuff I've already forgotten. I started thinking, man, I'm hungry, is it lunchtime yet? But I was deeply saddened that it was only 1030. My Cheerios had worn off hours earlier.
- At 1200, one of my residents sent me to the lunch "lecture" to swipe food. I came back with two pizzas (I had already eaten one piece) and a sack full of cold drinks. I felt like a huge sleaze, sneaking into a small room and walking out with half the remaining food.
- I saw another delivery (OA, epidural, easiest delivery EVER), watched a wound exploration (post-c/s infection), and then we were "allowed" to go to lecture.
- Lecture was actually for the residents, not the students, yet our attendance was required. We had a lecture at 1400, another at 1430, and then a 45 minute break, followed by another at 1600. *yawn*
- At 1700, we had to attend Grand Rounds. The topic: Avoiding the State Board of Medical Investigations. Some blowhard lawyer told lame anecdotes about physicians being reported to the state board for trivial complaints and how he miraculously saved them from loss of license, divorce, hell, etc. The attendings were fascinated, the residents gossiped, and all 5 of the med students had pulled out Case Files in the back row.
I got home at 1830, 13.5 hours after I left. It was a long damn day. I spent all day chasing residents back and forth from L&D to Triage, trying to figure out which patient was getting examined where and when my patients were delivering and when new patients had shown up in triage and WHAT THE HOLY HELL WAS GOING ON???!!!
Thought of the day: childbirth is an icky, icky process. Icky.
Monday, April 02, 2007
Today was the "first day" of OB/Gyn. I thank my lucky karma I was assigned to the "cush" hospital, where we work shifts instead of taking q4 call at [county hospital], aka the baby factory. We had some lectures this morning (mostly good), a long lunch, and then a VERY informal intro session with the course coordinator, who mostly has her act together (which is a pleasant change). Then, we walked over to the hospital for a quick tour of L&D. Once we found the residents' lounge, the course coordinator left us at the mercy of the residents sitting there. They seemed mostly benign, although little phrases stuck out:
"I don't really mind which order you see the patients in the morning, I won't yell at you, but some of the residents really prefer you to be on a different pod than the one they're on. But if I walked by Pod 3, and the student was there, I wouldn't yell at you for that, I would just go on to the next pod." (Well, gee, thanks!)
"We don't mind you following us around. If one of us gets up to leave, you should get up too--then, if we're just going to the bathroom or something, we'll say, Hey, it's cool, sit down. But otherwise, you should follow us."
Following a quick run-down, the Chief resident showed up. The mood shifted a bit, and she started her own orientation. She reminds me of my Chief from trauma surgery: they don't take crap from NOBODY, you understand? NOBODY. I don't think badly of her, but god forbid I cross her in some way. She let loose pearls like these:
"Don't let the attendings catch you sitting in this room, it looks bad."
"If you have a patient on the board, go by and check on her, because if suddenly her monitor quits showing up she may have gone straight to the OR and you need to be there. Don't come ask me where she is--no, ma'am--you need to be telling US where she is."
"Don't ask us if you can do stuff. We'll TELL you when you can do stuff."
All of it definitely made me shake in my boots a bit. The whole point of today seemed to be "Find stuff to do, and it better be the RIGHT stuff to do, but you'd better find it all on your own, or we'll be PISSED." Don't see the private patients, don't see the high-risk patients, do the triage H&P's in 15 minutes or less, write all your SOAP notes by the time the residents round, and DO NOT TOUCH a pretermer! Whew.
I do still have some apprehension about this rotation, since it used to be my chosen career path. What if I like it? What if I hate it? What if I drop a baby? What if I'm the jerk on the cord and invert some poor lady's uterus? GAH!
Time to go try to sleep this off, since I'll be leaving at 0440 tomorrow in order to preround.